Selfish thinking

I am WAY too selfish. Here I am, graduating college with no debt and with the love of my parents who will continue to support me, even if they don't always understand my methods. And what can I think of? Me. It's always on my mind. Why didn't she text me back? Why can't they understand how I feel? Why can't I have discipline? Why don't they think of me when they go out? It's ridiculous, seriously.

Can't contentment in everything that Jesus Christ has done for me be enough? When am I going to find rest in His arms and know that every time I'm thinking about myself, Jesus is wishing that I was thinking about Him? I mean, He died for me! Hung on a cross, bled, suffered, and died for me; loves me despite everything I do to push Him away; is always waiting for me. And why can't I give Him my time? My everything? Because I am so selfish!


You're My beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is my delight
Come away with me my love 

The job market: Nepotism in action

I'm graduating soon and suddenly, what I want to do is not acceptable. I can't accept part time jobs, because now that I'm in the "big leagues," as my father puts it, I can accept nothing less than a full time, 9-5 job. Clearly, its been a while since he's been in the job market.
Becoming a wedding planner isn't as easy as landing a full time assistant job until you gain enough experience and clientele that you can start your own business. Though I'm no expert, I'm pretty sure that the wedding planning industry is entirely based on nepotism. There's this guy who has a friend who has a brother who can make a call...If you are even able to get a job, you have to bust your butt and learn everything you can before you can get a chance to be successful. I am perfectly happy doing work for free until I get enough experience to get a job...too bad life requires you to have money...