Meet Charlie...

So, in case you havent seen it all over facebook, Charlie is here. Charlie is my new macbook pro and he is very pretty.

 so naturally.....I am very excited...

Anyway, I've been spending the time that I am at home messing with it and trying to customize it. Needless to say, there is going to be a time of adjusting.  Having a mac makes me want to be creative, even though I don't really have the programs for that. And it's going to be a while before that happens. I have found one thing about macs that I don't like. In this arduous process of transferring files over to this computer, I'm having to use my 8gb jump drive because I can't format my hard drive to this mac. Anyway, I have found out that even though I delete something off my flash drive, it's not until I empty the recycle bin that the space on the drive is freed up. It kept saying that it was full even though there was nothing on it! With PC's, if you delete something off of it, while it still resides in the recycle bin, the space is freed up on the jump drive. Not with macs though. It's a little annoying but no biggy.

In other wedding news, I've decided to add a little gem to most of my posts. At least I'll have some sort of representation of the kind of style I have when it comes to weddings. Who knows what the Lord has in store for me when it comes to wedding planning. But it's an exciting time to trust completely in Him. So on that note, I am in love with the anemone. It kind of has a buttercup look and comes in many vibrant colors. Usually the center of the flower is in a contrasting color, which is my favorite part. My favorite however, are the white ones, which is odd because I'm not generally drawn to white flowers. Anyway, here is the flower by itself.

This bouquet: stunning. Shot by the amazing Jessica Claire

And of course, this bouquet is wedding gold.

It's different than others you would see. Still has a sweet, vintage feel but has some vibrant colors that make it gorgeous. And of course the anemone. The flowers are by Flowerwild Designs. I came upon their blog not too long ago and I love their work. So gorgeous.

Anyway, that's what I got so far!

A few of my favorite things

I could literally spend hours looking at weddings. They get me so excited, you have no idea! And with that, comes this realization that being just graduated from college, I am a small fish in a big pond called the wedding industry. There are literally THOUSANDS of options out there, it's a little ridiculous. I'm a little in love with weddings.

Speaking of love, I have fallen in love with this photographer. I think he's fantastic. So vintage looking, its awesome.

On another note, can we please pause and appreciate how amazing this looks? Like you could just eat it right then and there. I might have to be adventurous and make this one...you can find the recipe here :)

Also, my flower pick of the week has to be this one. I'm in LOVE with fluffy flowers. Give me a bouquet full of ranunculuses and peonies and I'm in heaven. So....naturally. This is my pick of the week.

Discernment

You ever had this deep feeling about something but you weren't really sure what it was but knew it was from the Lord? Yea, me too. Although I've heard Christian authors say things about trusting "feelings" and how that is not an accurate way of telling what the Lord wants you to do, I'm not sure that's entirely true. I don't know. All I do know is that I have a spirit of discernment about things, and when the Lord is trying to tell me something, He sure as heck uses my feelings as a way of doing it. Now....as to what to do with those feelings, well that's an entirely different thing all together...

Selfish thinking

I am WAY too selfish. Here I am, graduating college with no debt and with the love of my parents who will continue to support me, even if they don't always understand my methods. And what can I think of? Me. It's always on my mind. Why didn't she text me back? Why can't they understand how I feel? Why can't I have discipline? Why don't they think of me when they go out? It's ridiculous, seriously.

Can't contentment in everything that Jesus Christ has done for me be enough? When am I going to find rest in His arms and know that every time I'm thinking about myself, Jesus is wishing that I was thinking about Him? I mean, He died for me! Hung on a cross, bled, suffered, and died for me; loves me despite everything I do to push Him away; is always waiting for me. And why can't I give Him my time? My everything? Because I am so selfish!


You're My beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is my delight
Come away with me my love 

The job market: Nepotism in action

I'm graduating soon and suddenly, what I want to do is not acceptable. I can't accept part time jobs, because now that I'm in the "big leagues," as my father puts it, I can accept nothing less than a full time, 9-5 job. Clearly, its been a while since he's been in the job market.
Becoming a wedding planner isn't as easy as landing a full time assistant job until you gain enough experience and clientele that you can start your own business. Though I'm no expert, I'm pretty sure that the wedding planning industry is entirely based on nepotism. There's this guy who has a friend who has a brother who can make a call...If you are even able to get a job, you have to bust your butt and learn everything you can before you can get a chance to be successful. I am perfectly happy doing work for free until I get enough experience to get a job...too bad life requires you to have money...

A week in the life of...

Alright, so not much has been goin on lately. I'm still waiting to hear back from Student Life. I got an email on Wednesday telling me that they would be sending me an email.....thanks for that...they said it could be as late as March 15....which is another week...
God is using this time to make me trust Him. Waiting is so hard, and even though this would be a really awesome opportunity, it's not where I want to be if God doesn't want me to be there. Still makes the waiting difficult because I just want to know!

In other news, I painted my nails tonight. The toes are a coral/red and fingernails are some sort of pink, called Pink Obsession. I'm not usually one to paint my nails, but to ofset the stress of my seemingly impossible midterm, I decided to do something for me. By the way, I got these new sleep pants at target that are AMAZING! So comfortable

Also, two weeks ago I spent a week at Briana's house while her parents were away. Needless to say, it was much appreciated. Thanks Briana :) So yea, me, Briana, and Ashley were roomates in a really big house for a week, it was a lot of fun. Friday we had a dinner/ impromptu dance/movie night with some of the friends. Kudos to Victor and Mike Nathan for makin dinner, Ashley for making those ridiculous (and by ridiculous, I mean fantastic) artichoke things, and Nick for finishing it off with the ice cream sandwiches. It was lots of fun and we pretty much just danced while we cooked and ate. That's probably one of my favorite things to do... Also, we watched Law Abiding Citizen...it was legit. Also, Kym talks in movies...FYI. Overall, lots of fellowship and good food.

Kym knows what to do with good music

Also, Briana tatted it up that week. She got a sick lookin tattoo on her wrist that said LOVE with a fish by it to. She's hardcore now :)

Peep ma tat!

I wanted to throw one more in there for good measure. I'm pretty sure that this accurately describes their relationship.

One more thing, God's been rockin my world, teaching me how much He loves me. Ephesians 1: 14 says that we were purchased by God through His blood so that we can be redeemed by Him when He comes. I've been learning an intimacy with Him, with His Spirit. God has been teaching me to get to know the Spirit, because the if I want to know God, then I need to know the Spirit, like in 1 corinthians 2:11. It's been radical just resting in the promise that God knows me. He knows everything about me. I'm such a safe person, making sure that no one gets in unless I say so. But with God, there are no walls, there are no barriers. It's just me and Him. He knows me and my imperfections and failures, and I am learning who He really is. It's so simple! It's been in front of my face my whole life but until I learned to trust Him, I could never know Him.

Knowing God...

"Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass." Psalm 37: 3-5

Seems like such a wonderful and easy thing to do right? Trust and delight yourself in the Lord and His ways and He'll give you what you want most? Why not do this? Why not put your life in the hands of the one who knows you deeper than anyone else ever will? God's been working in my heart to do this. Ok, so I've learned to trust Him in everything and give Him control. And now, I need to delight myself in His provision over me. I've been in inspired, not by teachings from Pastor Bob or from circumstances in my life that has drawn me to Him, but by high school kids. By working with these high schoolers in Boca and seeing them grow deeper in their walk with God, by finding an intimacy with their Creator, I am inspired to draw closer to God and to delight myself in Him, always. Andrew Lundy has been doing a phenomenal job in teaching them and harvesting friendship in their lives.

My next step is to create more of an intimate relationship with God. To learn what it is to "Know God." We're doing sexpectations in high school this month and last week, Andrew was talking about the need of guys and girl to have an intimate relationship with someone else. We were created for that purpose. I want that intimate relationship with God. He already knows me, and now I want to know Him. My bible study this past week has been about understanding God. By developing more of an intimate relationship with Him, and will understand Him.

Proverbs 2: 2-7 talks about ways to gain wisdom, "incline your ear to wisdom and apply your heart to understanding; yes if you cry out for discernment, and lift up your voice for understanding, if you seek her as silver, and search for her as for hidden treasure; then you will understand the fear of the Lord, and find the knowledge of God. For the Lord gives wisdom; from His mouth come knowledge and understanding."

That passage is amazing! Here is my guide to know God! My favorite part is "if you seek her as silver, and search for her as for hidden treasure; then you will understand the fear o the Lord" It's talking about seeking the word of God. My bible study this week said to take the word and devour it. Search it, mull over it, find the truths and live them out. This is my goal.

Goal for 2010: To seek God. To know Him intimately and to delight myself in Him.